Learning Some Patience Could Do Everyone Some Good, But Mostly Me

Lately I've been reminded of marriage, engagements, and wedding plans. All things I can't have right now.
Not because he won't commit or isn't sure about "us", but because we're not ready.
He wants to wait until we're financially ready to support each other, while still being able to put a percentage of every check to the side for savings and still be able to live off the rest of the check.
I want to get married now and use some money I have until we have great jobs.

This is why I'm so in love with him: he won't marry me now.
I know that sounds weird, but he's right. We shouldn't get married now. It'll only put us in a money rut later in our marriage and possibly cause us to get divorced.
I want to be with him forever. If I have to wait a few years for that, I will. I would wait an eternity if it meant he'd be there in the end. Even though I really wish he'd drop everything tomorrow and marry me, I'm thankful he's more interested in later rather than now and won't do that.

I know that before I know it, we'll be celebrating our 20th anniversary and all this waiting and torture will be a distant memory and possibly even forgotten. I pray that God will grant me the patience to wait on Him to decide and not us, or more so me. I know with everything God is possible and because of that, I can wait to marry him, whenever that may be. I can't rush what God has planned for me and I don't want to. If you think about it, please pray for me. I don't want to mess this up.

Updates

Just because I haven't updated in awhile, I'm going to do an update post.

I got a cat, as some of you may know. Pictures of her are on my facebook. For security reasons, I'm not posting a link here. But you can text/message me and I will give it to you.

I got a roommate. I was kind of regretting it at first and now I have mixed feelings. Some days are good, some days I get mad and wish she were gone. Just pray that everything will work out for the better.

My boyfriend and I just got to 7 months. I'm still so excited!

I start school soon, I can't wait.