One tear in the driving rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart
I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye.
But if there's no other way, I'm done asking why.
I'm on my knees, begging You to turn to me
I'm on my knees, Father will You run to me?
This past weekend I heard a song that I can't get out of my head. I really don't mind though, because the song is beautiful. The song also happens to be about how I feel right now.
I'm amazed at the greatness that is God. He's always there. You may not feel Him, but He's there.
Lately I've been trying to tell myself to focus on God more than others. Trying to tell myself to ask God for help and not other people. Talking to God and telling Him why I'm sad, asking Him what I should do, asking Him for strength.
I'm not perfect. I've done a lot of stupid things, over and over again. I've cursed, cheated, stolen things, thought bad things, did bad things, so many times. I've never told anyone about Him or invited a friend to church. But no matter what I do or don't do, and no matter how many times I do it, God forgives. God tells me it's okay. When I cry, He tells me He'll make it better soon. He tells me to just be patient. He tells me He has something much better in store for me. What ever it is, I don't deserve it, but I pray that I can wait for His timing. I need to learn to call on Him and learn that not everything comes when I want it to. I'm learning. I'll always be learning. I just hope one day I can be the person He created me to be.
