Green with Envy

It's always a relief when my need to be with him slows down or disappears completely. Unfortunately, it always comes back worse then it was before. I hate that.
A friend of mine recently got married. All I could think was how much I wanted that. Of course, I was very excited for them, but I just wondered why it couldn't come as quickly for me.

I'm really trying to work on it. I'm trying not to pressure or bug him and I'm really trying not to envy those who have taken that step in their relationship. I'm trying to work things out with myself, because I know why I have this feeling and he can't help with that.
I also know that it's going to be very hard in the upcoming months, because of things that I will be reminded of, but if I keep praying and trusting God, He will get me through it. I just need to get through this...