Taking a long, hard look at Me

I thought long and hard about why I wanted a puppy and I realized why.

My entire life has been spent trying to get someone's attention and usually I never felt like I got it. I remember having a dog at various times for most of my life. They were always there to play with and they always had their attention set on who was playing with them at that time.
My need to take care of someone and have their full attention is unfortunately still there, and still not always satisfied. I think that in my head I feel that if I get a dog then I can have both. I can have someone that needs me and wants me to always be with them too. I think I feel that I won't be alone. I don't like being alone.
These feelings have recently resurfaced because my boyfriend's curfew is midnight. He leaves me at 11:30pm every day. I hate that. I cried today after he left. I don't want that. I want someone here.
I guess maybe I have abandonment issues...I'm not really sure what's wrong with me. But there is definitely something wrong.

I still really want a dog.