Ug...

Okay, so I'm going to write this blog while all this is on my mind and bugging me so I have a way to let it out.

I am so stressed lately. I can't remember what I have planned for what day, at what time, or where it's at. I have so much to do. I'm supposed to go to a photoshoot with two friends tomorrow, because they're both leaving for college in a few days/weeks. I'm not even sure where I'm meeting them up at. I just know I have to be there at 2:15pm. Then I have to work from 4pm to close, which is generally 10:30-10:45pm. Then on Thursday I work from 7am to 3pm. I have a hair appointment at 5 to get a perm. Friday I know I work, I just don't know what time and then I'm supposed to take a friend out to dinner. Saturday I work 12pm-5pm, and then I have to go to my friend's graduation.
Besides all that I have graduation gifts that I'm apparently supposed to get my friends. Then my boyfriend and I have a 6 month anniversery coming next month and I'm getting him some things. My brothers birthday is Thursday and I offered to take him to dinner.
I also have to fix my car because the oil light is on and it's making funny noises. My fridge isn't working and I just went grocery shopping.

To top all the off, I found an army of ants on my rug in my living room because I'm lazy and didn't throw something away.
That was what broke me. I saw all those ants and thought, "How am I supposed to clean all that up? There's so many!" and I just started crying.
I need a break. I want to be able to wake up one morning and say, "I have nothing to do today. This feels nice." I'm stressed and tired and I can't take. I can't do anything about it either. I just want to relax and know that no one needs me to do anything and I can just breathe.
I need some fresh air.